From the depths of despair, you can still find happiness. Join me, my husband Juan, and our dog Ellie as we build our own.
From the depths of despair, you can still find happiness. Join me, my husband Juan, and our dog Ellie as we build our own.
From the depths of despair, you can still find happiness. Join me, my husband Juan, and our dog Ellie as we build our own.
From the depths of despair, you can still find happiness. Join me, my husband Juan, and our dog Ellie as we build our own.

I chase meaning in places most people overlook: quiet rivers, forgotten trails, and uncomfortable truths. History humbles me. Nature grounds me. And the ones beside me, my husband and my dog, remind me what love looks like when it is real.
My past is complicated, and I don’t hide from it. My mistakes were devastating, but they cracked me open. They taught me to live honestly, love deeply, and write like hell.
This blog was born from wreckage. What you’ll find here isn’t just survival. It’s what happens when you build a life from the ashes with your whole heart. I have compassion for those who stumble and a quiet respect for those still waiting to fall.

I’ve always loved the entrepreneurial process: the messy, creative work of making something from nothing. Right now, I’m building several projects that mark a departure from what I’ve done before—a quiet transformation. Details will come in time.
When I’m not building, I’m usually planning our next wilderness trek. I find peace in the backcountry, far from cell service and closer to whatever is real. I spent years skydiving, and I know I’ll return to the sky someday.
I also volunteer at a local food pantry and have worked as a professional chef feeding some of the most vulnerable people in our community. Giving back matters to me, not as penance, but as purpose.
Since 2016, I’ve shared my life with my husband, Juan. I’m endlessly grateful for his love, his steadiness, and his willingness to chase wild adventures alongside me.

I write for anyone who’s ever been knocked flat and still found the strength to stand again. My readers come from all walks of life, but they share something: they’ve been through something difficult and refused to let it define them. If you’ve faced loss, shame, consequence, or regret and still chose to keep going, you’ll feel at home here.
I explore what it means to build a meaningful life not in spite of hardship, but through it. For me, that means finding joy in small, sacred adventures: remote trails, redwood silence, the light changing across the ocean. Rebuilding after destruction isn’t easy. But it’s possible.
I lost everything. What I have now wasn’t handed to me. I fought for it and shaped it with honesty, grit, and the belief that life can still be beautiful after ruin. If you’re rebuilding too, you’re not alone.
CONTENT NOTE: :
This blog is an honest account of a complicated life.
Some entries explore difficult subjects, including addiction, mental health, sexuality, trauma, crime, incarceration, and suicide. When appropriate, individual entries include more specific content notes.
These experiences are part of my story, but they are not the whole of it.
Please read with whatever boundaries are right for you.


































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